Think Positive.

People keep telling me to think positive and I try to but I cant. So many thoughts are going around in my head, so many questions and no answers yet. Another day waiting to hear from the hospital.

I don't know if it is possible for people not to think the worst if I tell myself I'm going to get the all clear and it turns out bad news then it would be harder to cope with. If I try prepare for the worst and I get good news then I will be the happiest person ever.

People say I should keep busy and do things to keep my mind from thinking the worst. No matter what I do it stays on my mind and if it was someone else would they not be thinking the same way as I do or is it just me that thinks that way?

I like to write and say whats on my mind. I think it helps a little bit the hard part is all the waiting and not knowing and not been able to do anything about it.